I am wired on coffee this evening with many assignments due, and so I drink more. I don't understand yet, even in my 30's that after 7 PM is when the time should stop and one should drink some sleepy time tea. I have children to get up in the morning and a husband to wake up, so why am I still awake at 12:43 AM? It's coffee. I drank too much of it. I am awake and joined a blogging site to release my thoughts on as if this were a diary that I once had. I remember the days when I used a pen and it was alright to spend hours writing in my locked journal. Only dreams were allowed in those pages as I thought happy thoughts of the future. I would never have thought to have ended up married and serving it up in full-time ministry. My life has been a poor example to share the gospel with others. I hope that this time around, that my new found hope in working with people will be transparent and honest with others. I know that my life may not have been the greatest, but I know that God has been the center of it all. He deserves the praise in the hard and most difficult times. I realize in this alert and oriented state is that my life is meant to serve. I might not have the riches to prove that I am important to others, but I am rich knowing that I have served others with compassion and a love for God. I want to leave this earth knowing that I shared the gospel with my children and found purpose in loving Jesus Christ. He is everything to me. I have found that in the trials and all of life's opposition, that He is the reason why I have hope. The coffee is wearing down as I'm still writing here. It's my fingers that are getting exhausted from this writing and maybe I'll rest since I will be getting up in a few hours. Some points that I will remember next time are: 1) Don't drink coffee after 7 PM or else..2) Write something that matters even if it is 12:53 AM..3) Make a difference by sharing the gospel and to remember who really loves and finds you as important. Ahh, there's so much to write that I'll have to share later, because even after 10 minutes, I am starting to get sleepy! Write and make some deep thoughts that come out by turning it into a blog..is perfect and so I dare you to try. I will be ending this with a wonderful idea to all who read this: Write your thoughts and dreams on paper and don't stop trying even when the coffee wears out. God is your strength and the source to get you by..and He gives you rest when you are tired and weary too. Keep your hopes high and don't stop..He will see you through it all! Now, I'm going to bed. I know that I will need a cup of coffee in a few..wishing all those happy dreams and best wishes.